Ootd, day out with my babe

Aljunied library day

Went swimming

Msia Trip

Book of the night

Pasta mania!

Forty Hands

Curry Maggie mee is da bomb

Good morning world

Din Tai Fung

June Summer Break

My Mid Year Exams are coming soon although it's summer break right now. Having plenty of sleep, am loving the break, but it's not a holiday, it's a study break urgh.

Just feeling abit down 

I'm annoying? Immature? Didn't know I bothered u so much. Guess i better draw the line then. I'm tired too :( guess u dunno how much it hurts 

Grasping my heart, stopping the negative thoughts

It's a wed. And oh well today was supposedly fine. But I don't know why I turn emo suddenly. Guess I take things to o seriously? I need to relax, n not take jokes to heart. I mean :( I can't help thinking abt it. Why do what ppl say matter so much to me? I rlly shouldn't care, n just take it lightly it's all a joke after all. It's rlly ok to be the joke. But sometimes, I can't help but feel that I am not born to be a joke. I have feelings too :( And I just hide every feeling behind the smile of mine. My smile serves two purpose. One is genuine, the other is just to hide the tears rolling behind my eyes. Why do I have to be so emo haish. I rlly can't control my negative thoughts :(

Vesak Day

Hie! It's a public hol today! And i'm feeling kinda restless and lazy, just wanna have more zzz time. Hahaha it's a great tuesday. Loving public hols much. Kinda taking a break rn. #hiphiphoorayy

Some thoughts

It's been a long time since I blogged. It's like I just post on a monthly basis. That's not quite frequent. There's so much thoughts and feelings running through me. It's just that I don't usually share it. I just keep them to myself and I'll just think abt it the whole day. Tonight is another night whr I'm thinking yet again. I don't know why I have such thoughts but it's really running in my head. Like I don't know, I just feel insecure. I don't understand why. Could it be that I'm feeling a tinge of jealousy? I really don't know. Looking at photos from the past and comparing to now, a lot of things have changed. Maybe we're all changing everyday but we don't seem to notice. Only when we look back do we then realise how much things have changed. I'm just having the thought: just how important am I to you? I really want to know. It's like certain ways that u treat me that gave me the idea of me not being important. There are times when I feel hurt. It's like I'm totally worthless. Maybe I should just step out. Maybe someone else is much better than me. In fact the whole world has so many more people better than me, I'm just another ordinary person who doesn't have much worth? I'm insecure most of the time. Negative thoughts, blur, careless, blunt in my speeches, awkward, slow. Just so many bad qualities. Unlike other people, who are smart, eloquent, communicate so fluently, talk so smoothly and sweet, able to please everyone, helpful. It's not that I don't want to help, sometimes it's just beyond me. I'm afraid I'll just make things worse. I'm sorry I aren't like them. It's just me. Maybe u'll feel happier with someone else. So I'll just retreat into my own world. 

Good Friday

Haven't blogged for so long alrdy! Guess I just didn't have time. Road race was over in march and so did march block test. Didn't do well for it but I still gotta move on. Need to try harder than before. I'm thankful to get an A for pw though. At least it gave me hope. That hard work and sacrifices will one day pay off. As long as I do my best and don't give up. Gotta hang on til the end. Keep on going no matter what. I've gotta stay strong. Having flu today, my nose can't stop running. Having some rest on a Good Friday :-) 

Pre-Monday

It's Sunday and I'm feeling kinda restless. There's nth that I wanna do. But there's a ton of work still waiting for me. Guess I just gotta get it over & done with. Anyway, It's collection of A-level Chinese results tmr. I'm kinda anxious. But I don't want to think abt it. Hope it'll turn out fine. Not sure how I'll face it but May luck be on my side

Throwback to my vacation in Vietnam Part 1

My thoughts

[Extracted this piece of blog post from my tumblr site. Written a few weeks back]
It’s really scary to see how times have passed by so quickly. It’s like one moment ago I was happily being an ignorant kid, and the next thing I knew, here I am, looking back at how time and experiences have shaped me. Into who I am now. It’s an hour past midnight now, the best timing to be emotional, to think abt life. Everything has changed completely since the transition of sec sch to jc. It’s not a bad thing to change. But I’m unsure if I have changed for the better or not. All I know is that I have gone through so much experiences. Be it happy or sad. My emotions can go on an all time high to an all time low. And I have to learn to deal with it emotionally. And physically, I have Cca like 3 times per week, and having 2 times of Pe running 3.1km. It’s so draining oh well but I guess that’s just life. Mentally, school work is drowning me. I have been trying my best to complete my work, but it’s so draining at times, I admit I feel dumb, or even on the verge of giving up. But I know no matter how slow I am, I must not give up. I have to keep on walking through this path of mine. And I also realise how things that can make me smile also have changed. Like how I will smile when I see my favourite idol on tv, but now I can smile simply just when someone smiles at me too. I love that kind of sincerity and warmth. It makes me feel real. Like life is worth its meaning. I hope I’ll go on finding the worth of everyday, making every moment, a moment I treasure.